Belief is the most dangerous thing in the world. That is where we hold all our frozen thoughts and feelings, all our opinions and judgments, all the attachments that we have that keeps us in our pain and suffering. Because of belief, we justify most everything we do as being the right action, even down to the act of murder and war. Each of us created belief even before we were old enough to know what it is that we were doing, or even knew the name of it.
You may notice something about yourself prior to the age you had language, so there was no name for it. Now, it is just a feeling. You had a feeling of being unworthy, for example, when your parents used harsh, loud words around you. You didn’t know what they meant, yet they were scary and possibly painful, so you started a belief that your parents didn’t like you or that you were wrong in some way.
The words came later. You labeled what you felt as unworthy or inferior or low self-worth. You may even have become vain if you resisted being unworthy. Yet, many beliefs happened prior to language, and that is what now makes this even more difficult. You may believe you a bad person; that you are unworthy of love and attention from your parents.
When you are looking in the domain of unworthy or inferior or whatever context of your life you are looking into, I will sometimes ask you to say that you are the world’s worst person or the greatest person (they are the same). Speaking that takes you to the place of transcending what you are feeling about yourself. Saying those words about yourself might allow you to find out what is behind them, and what is behind it all is belief, and belief is holding the feelings in place.
Belief is what causes the consideration of vanity or unworthy or a hundred other feelings we are host to. Some people have switched or resisted what they first believed, which makes it even harder to find the original and what is behind it. They might have felt unworthy and said they are never going to feel that way again, so they then put on another fake front (since unworthy was already a fake front) of vanity. Then they live their life in vanity, not seeing it is really unworthy they are hiding. So, they have at least two labels to get through before they can see the beliefs which caused it.
Belief is formed before we know what belief is. Before we have language, we create beliefs about ourselves and others. Even though we don’t have the words, we sense the tone of the words; and if they are harsh, we get the sense they aimed at us simply because we are there. The tone of words used around us gives us the first sense of good or bad. If the tone is sweet or syrupy, you may feel good, and if harsh words are used, you will feel bad.
You don’t know what happened prior to when you developed language, but you can tell the results by looking at your life. If you are stuck in worthy/unworthy, that is your whole world, and you developed everything from there. You probably have never been able to get beyond that. You gave birth to yourself after you were born, birth to this new identity, this fake self of belief.
Some create a fake identity as the good little girl or good little boy in order to prove themselves as being good since they felt unworthy and bad. In order for there to be the good girl or good boy, there needed to be the bad girl or bad boy as well. That is the part they want to hide, even from themselves.
The irony of it all is that in trying to be the good girl IS the bad girl. In order to see what the bad girl is, she has to see what she is being because that is the bad girl. The bad little girl is pretending to be the good little girl. Do you see how convoluted this gets, this is why we are in so much confusion.
Children are told to be a good girls or boys, and they don’t know what that is. A child knows if the parents are saying he has to be a good boy, then he knows he must not already be a good boy, so he forms the belief that he is bad.
When I talk about us being beaten into submission as children, that is the kind of beaten I mean. We are beaten and destroyed by our parents, and the same thing happened to them and to their parents. Each generation did it to their children (unknowingly), and we did it to our children, and our children will do it to their children. This has been going on for thousands of years.
The parents think they are doing the right thing by telling their children to be good girls/good boys. They don’t’ know what it does to the child, as you don’t know what you are (or were) doing to your children. To make matters even worse, everyone has their own definition of what a good girl or good boy is, and they pass that on to their children as well.
We are already born perfect, which in our world is already a good person. Then on top of this we applied the belief of good girl/good boy, which actually causes a bad girl/bad boy — a fake identity. Then everything else is piled on top of that.
A belief looks for evidence to prove it is right. In order to get to the belief you need to go through the “good and the bad,” not just one side or the other. If you have one you have them both. If you have worthy, you have unworthy and vice versa.
It is all based on the child unknowingly causing insanity. You could say it was the parents causing it, and that is true; yet as a child you accepted their insanity, so it is your responsibility to take care of it now. We need not throw blame on this as it has always been that way. This is why insanity persists.
At birth the child is perfect, and the parents are perfect as well in that one moment. Then from there it quickly goes downhill, and it is because we are all insane people giving birth to sane people then causing them to become insane. This is a most difficult thing for people to get. It means that you are insane, yet you think it is everyone else that is insane, not you.
We all think we are going to fix the other people or the planet or one cause or another. People are out saving the whales, saving the forest, saving the turtles, all the time not looking at themselves.
You want to blame everyone else. You do not see that it is you who is causing everything. And, here is the great news. If it is you, then you can do something about it. However, most of you do not want to take responsibility for yourselves. You would rather change the other person. Look at the ridiculousness of that. Everybody is trying to fix others, and the one doing the fixing is broken. The broken one doesn’t address himself because of the pain and difficulty of addressing himself. So the only person you can actually fix on this entire planet is being ignored.
People ignore themselves because it is so difficult to see these things in themselves. It is easy to see all the problems the other person has, and we only see it in the other person because it is in ourselves, but we ignore it in ourselves. Once you can see and face the truth of yourself, it disappears. It is not like magic, like poof and it’s all gone. It is more like a weight reduction diet. For 20 years you ate so much you now weigh 300 pounds, and you cannot go immediately to being totally fit and healthy. Psychologically it is not quite the same, for it doesn’t take quite as much time even though there is some residue that needs to be cleared up once the truth is seen. The older we get, the less energy we might have to do these things, so it’s better to discover the truth of yourself while you are young.
Yet, if you speak the truth of yourself every day, then you will gain energy, so even if you are older, it is not impossible to do this. Verbalizing what is going on inside releases the energy that is stored inside. Yet, some people think It is difficult to speak the truth of themselves when they don’t see themselves clearly enough. One way to see the truth is to listen. Listen to yourself while you say it, so you can hear if it is a lie or the truth. You speak in a different tone when you speak the truth or a lie, listen to yourself so you can hear the difference.